Stressing to the eerie glow of foxfire

Well, not really.

Foxfire is just awesome though. Seriously. Google it people! It’s bioluminescence in fungi.

In other words: Glowy mushrooms! One day…. on day i’ll have a room with all kinds of awesome fungi species.

 

Well, the next and last exam of the glorious university semester is tomorrow, so I’m not-so-gently sailing the seas of inner turbulance. Yeah. I’m nervous. I’ll be over soon enough though. perhaps too soon. :/ I’m going to have to sort out my subject choices, see what I want to and CAN do in the coming semester.  Good thing is that I can always come back and pick up some more once i’m done.

 

So yes, i went to uni- science degree of all things. The job ending situation thing….not being good and so on…. well

*sigh*

I went to uni for multiple reasons. One of which was to prove the bitch wrong.  Yes folks. That’s right. Apparently I would never amount to anything and pretty well go nowhere in my life. After the mandatory moping and upset phase, my glum mood and despondancy mutated into quiet rage and determination.  Screw you. i can do well, I can do better than some minimum wage job for the rest of my life, i can do better than just hol down a reasonable job. Uni here i come. It’s been good. Challenging yet a break in many ways.

Been getting into card making and scrap booking good fun- I’ll see about posting pics at some point. So many pretty papers and stamps @_@

 

My dad is still an ass, just more of a grot than before. Due to various events my mum is now working basically full time. This translates into me picking up the slack around the house then getting moaned at for not helping more. YES the arthritis sucks. YES i should help. but i do help and for once in his egocentric little life he should do somethign too. It takes two steps, three if you’re taking small ones to go from desk to bin. Does he make the journey? no. icecream wrappers, chocolate bar packaging, empty chip bags all congregate beside His Royal Highness until someone else deals with it. Same goes for glasses, cups and plates. Hell, he’d probably pass out from dehydration if ma and I didn’t bring him something to eat and drink once in a while.  I admit this is a rant, a pretty shoddy one at that, but it’s makign me feel better. Impatience is another non-virtue.  10mins wait is too long. The Master Demands Service NOW! he figets, jiggles, squirms and makes various noises and faces. It drives me nuts. 20 mins is a decent wait. 10 mins? it’s to be freaking expected! At least have the decency not to nit-pick and make comments under your breath while shifting about like a man with weasels down his pants! argh!

Bah, it’s probably the heat (40 + degrees celcius today WOOOO!) possibly the studies, maybe a bit of pms, likely the EVE chatter in the background (anyone playing EVE online? Do me a favour and hunt down Caldak. Please. Multiple times would be even better)

Most everything is shortening my fuse. Then i get lectured for being ’snippy’. Well fuck that. Studies. Work. Then GONE!

*evil cackle*

Meanwhile, same old grind i guess

 

 

Muddle headedness….

Well. I’m out of work. In short things were going bad and i pretty well quit today. Some say i could’ve been fired, but i got in first. It was not pretty and was….upsetting. The, for lack of a better term, conversation which followed was blunt, vindictive and basically hurtful.

However this conjures curiously mixed feelings. I mean i’m not happy that i’ve lost a stream of income, and I’m definately feeling injured still from what was said to me, but I’m strangely happy and at peace. I’m out of there. I have no obligations. I tried to do the right thing and i feel that it wasn’t only my fault.  Another nice point is that because it was contract work, I don’t need to use them as a referee, reference or have any contact with them ever again.

WOOP! *pops party popper*

I get my time back, and sure while i’m not being paid I can do a lot with that time. I can search for work, i can study, i can do art and craft stuff….

and now for something utterly cute

….Over and out….

Musings of an empty mind

It’s been pretty quiet of late.

Ended up taking my driving test on Sunday past, ended up passing with a score/percentage of 93. Ended up going down to the transport centre on the Monday, was really surprised by the speed and efficiency of service. The reception people were prompt and gave clear, concise instructions on what to fill out and where to find pens etc… and it didn’t take long at all before my number was called for counter service. So now I am on my p-plates which is kind of a scary thought in some ways. I think my first solo-drive will be very strange and rather nerve wracking, especially considering that it’ll be Wednesday at night (re about 9pm) into the city. I mean i know the route and everything, that part’s fine it’s more the finding parking on own and not having that second set of eyes on the lookout for idiot drivers (soon to be one more ;P ) I think everything will go ok, it’s just a strange kind of feeling I guess. I haven’t told sGILLz yet, planning on having it as almost a little surprise

I must be a cold bitch though it seems. This has been evidenced by a number of things.

I was recently recommended a book, complete with a ‘it made me cry multiple times’ warning/ comment kind of thing.  I’m most of the way through and…nothing. Not even sadness really, i mean there’s been an ‘awww’ moment but it barely caused a pause for thought or even a pause really. Other was while i was reading an article on the glowing monkeys developed in….i think it was Japan. Anyway, they’ve gen-gineered these marmosets so that their hands and feet fluoresce under UV light. Now the big thing is that they’ve now gotten that spliced gene to become hereditary. Sure they’ve done similar with mice to my knowledge, but to do it with the primates is much harder due to the DNA complexity and structuring. Now as per habit I scroll down to comments section to see what outcry this has managed to garner. C’mon it’s inevitable with this kind of thing! Glowing monkeys and genetic experiments on creatures so similar to ourselves is bound to stir up readers.  Anyway, getting back to the sort-of thread. There was a post, which had gathered a reasonable amount of support which basically called in inhumane, unethical etc etc etc largely because of the way in which the test-animals are treated. Cold cages for their whole lives, babies taken away from mothers and, the cherry on the top, how once the monkeys have completed their purpose they are killed for analysis and dissection without painkillers as this may effect results and findings. My thoughts? Whoop-de-freaking-doo. What do you expect people? Them to be coddled and gently and lovingly cared for, for the duration of their fuzzy little lives? Yes, the lack of painkiller use may seem inhumane but there are surely ways and means to kill something cleanly and as painlessly as possible. The commenter spoke about, if memory serves right, how they were beheaded. We do worse to our own kind. Far far worse. Are the animals tortured before death? Are they left permanently disfigured for the remainder of their life? Starved to death? Made to live in their own waste without clean water? Are they cut open while their heart is still beating? Killed or harmed just for the fun of it? Pfah. I highly doubt so. Children are taken away from their parents everyday, hell, children have been made to watch as their friends and family are killed.

I’m not saying that it’s right to separate the baby from the mother, or that the cage method is the best for the marmoset. Yes changes need to be made, and yes things aren’t really right. But there are much bigger inhumanities, moral crimes and atrocities in the world than a lab-animal being killed for analysis, why are people so quick to cry out when the cute-fuzzies are in a situation which could be better, yet just go ‘aww that’s sad’ or ‘ that’s horrible’ and turn away again when it’s one of our own?

I don’t know. Mebbe I’m too hard, perhaps my heart should ache more for the ‘poor ickle lab creatures’. Perhaps I should be more of a softy in terms of the emotional content of things. *shrugs*

Moving on……

Watched the ‘Yes-men’ last night, weird in some ways, but highly enjoyable in others. In short it’s pretty much about a group of guys who set up a website ‘next-door’ to the WTO (World Trade Organization). They ended up receiving some e-mails from people, believing they were the WTO, to come and speak at events and conferences. They went and spoke. It’s amazing how much they got away with. Not action-packed, no romance, no drama or aliens, but definately worth a look if you get chance.

-Azzarath